Thursday, December 31, 2009


We talked about always being at peace in the PEP meeting this week at Church. God says we should have peace. It was so hard for me to understand how we could be at peace all the time when we are always dealing with so many different situations and emotions. I have thought about this all day and I think I finally understand it.  It took me a long time to understand how happiness is a choice for the same reason and they are kind of the same thing. Bad things are going to happen and it is up to us how we choose to handle anything that comes are way.  If it makes us angry, that is what we choose, if it makes us sad, same thing.  Being at peace all the time is the same thing. We are able through free will to choose what feeling we are going to have in every situation. So what we have been lacking in this life is control over our emotions, which makes most of us crazy at times. We are always trying to control every body and everything around us, but never take the time to understand we can not control anything but ourselves......


Tuesday, December 29, 2009


Can you believe this is what winter looks like some where in the world....  what a wonderful thing.

This has been a wonerful holiday for me in so many ways.  I enjoyed the people I was with and the trip to Sue's Church.  Most of all God answered a prayer for me and it was a eye opening experience.  It's so true when they say, be careful what you ask for because you never know how you are going to recieve it. I can now say that I truly understand that saying.

I have been praying for God to enlarge my border's so that I can be of service to him and he has answered that for me. He had to give me one more lesson before I could accept that my work here is done and that it is ok for me to move on. A door has been closed in my life and I am looking forward to the next one to open. Life here on earth is so short, I have been so blessed with all that I have had, all the places I have been able to travel and see.  Now it is time for me to be in service and do it God's way, not mine.  So look out world..... here I come....

I think the hardest thing to accept is that I will not be going forward in life with most of the people from my past.  I don't fully understand this reason, but I know down the road it will all be revealed to me.  I know 2010 will bring new changes for all of us because life never stands still. 

I was thinking the other day about how our lives are just like a river, we are always moving forward and along the way we may be flowing slow like a meandering stream and other times we are flowing fast like a rapids, we will come to forks in the river and have to go one way or the other and all the time we are moving toward the ocean and nothing can stop us, we might get re-routed but in the end we will still end up in the ocean.

In the end we are going to end up with God if we are on the right path and take the right bend in the river.

Monday, December 28, 2009


Hello Eveyone,

We are finally back in Saginaw.  That was a long weekend and thank God it's over.

We had a great time at Alvin's brothers 55th birthday party, great food, great conversation, great people.

Sunday we went to Jackson and  went to Church with Sue Piper so we could hear her sing in the and play the bells.  What a wonderful service and people. They were all so welcoming and kind.

I will write more tomorrow, still trying to unpack.


Thursday, December 24, 2009


Have a wonderful Christmas and I will write again next week.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009


While we enjoy this man made Holiday let's not forget to keep Jesus in our hearts and prayers.

I was thinking today of all the different people in the world and all the different religions, bibles and believes. We have so many different ways to believe and I don't think one of them is wrong as long as the main focus in on Peace, Love, and Worship. We all know right from wrong....  no matter how many different ways we say it, it's still the same...  RIGHT AND WRONG.  So, let's just ask for guidence,and forgiveness.

God Bless each one of you.
Love and Light

Please say a prayer this Holiday for all our Soldiers that are keeping us safe and are not able to be home for the Holidays.

Monday, December 21, 2009


I hope when we see God coming back in the clouds that it will look like this picture. I could not even imagine seeing this, my heart would fill with such Praise and Glory.

Yesterday in Church I could feel the spirit of the Lord filling the building and the people.  It was a wonderful service and the Praise team did a great job.

Pastor Van continues to talk about the changes that will be coming in the Church in 2010 and every time he talks about it I can feel the energy in the Church changing. I don't know what all it will be but I know it is going to be a good thing for all of them. I am just happy to be in the Church for whatever time I still have here in Saginaw.  I know the Lord is leading me to be in service in another area and I am ready. My heart will always be connected to this Church and the people in it.

I know from today forward we are all preparing for the end times and being with the Lord. If we are still here on this earth we still have work to do for the Lord because at this point I don't think anything  we do from now on has to do with us.  If we truly have... faith... we are protected. Now it is just what we can do for him and the rest of his children here on earth. It's not about a building, not even a Church, it is about God's children, nothing more, nothing less. If you know your faith is true, then it is not about you, it's only about servie to God.

Sunday, December 20, 2009


All these beauitful ladies are my cousins. This was taken at a Victorian Garden Party that my cousin Bill and his wife Sue put on for us in the summer of 2007.

I thought I would share this with all of you, just to take our minds off the cold for a few minutes. This was a fun get together that was planned a year in advance. The dresses four of the ladies on the left are wearing were all made (100%) by my ocusin Bill, who at the time was 62, I think. It took him all winter to make these dresses and he did a wonderful job, the ladies were thrilled with them.

This took place on the hottest day of the summer that year, it was over 90 degrees. As hot as we were on that one day, I can not even imagine what it must of been like for the women back in the days when they dressed that way all the time.

We took pictures that day, went on the hay ride back through the woods, the men did the cooking, serving and cleaning . I can not begin to tell you how much fun we had. We did it a couple of years in a row and then everyone got busy with other things.

That's one of the reason I loved being in Harrison, we would come up with ideas like this to get together and just have fun. Alvin and I always had a Holloween party every year that was potluck of course. We came in costume or not, it was up to them. We had so many laughs and wonderful times. I have such a wonderful family.

Just before I left Harrison a few of us talked about getting together to start a Bible Study Group, never got a chance for it. I am sure when I move back it will happen. I might even get a few of them to go to Church with me. I will be praying on this everyday until then.

We even had a memorial service and dinner on my patio for my dad and his sister the first summer we moved to Harrison. The lady in the picture on the far right is my cousin Carlinda, it was her mom and my dad. Her mother passed away in December and my dad passed in March of the follwoing year, so once my step mom came back from FL. we were able to get together and have a service. My uncle Bruce (he is the brother of my dad and aunt) is a Pastor and he did the honors of leading the service. It was so nice just to share stories with everyone because I did not grow up with dads side of the family. What a blessing the memorial was.

Anyway.... just wanted to share a little of my life with you. God only knows what I will write about tomorrow.

Love and Light

Saturday, December 19, 2009


When you are in prayer as Jesus is here, do you feel as though a angel is standing over you also?  I can tell you from deep in my heart that many times I have not felt God with me in prayer, and even questioned if God was out there at all. Then I would think of all my whinning and crying about the things in my life that seemed so difficult at the time and I knew it could never compare to what Jesus must have went thur here on earth in the short 33 1/2 years he walked this earth. How do we even have the right to complain and not do what God wants us to do for him, when he willing gave his only begotten son for US, to pay for our sins in advance. I would say that God is the one that came up with the Pay It Forward concept. We could never give what he gave for us, yet, most of us are still not willing to Pay It Forward for him. What is wrong with us, why do we find this so hard?  All we have to do is follow his lead in the dance of life and he will never forsake us.  We can not say that about most of the people around us here on earth.

Maybe tonight when you are bowing your head in prayer, you could ask God how you can Pay It Forward for him....

Love and Light

Friday, December 18, 2009


Sorry I did not get a chance to share with you today. I have been busy cleaning house and getting ready for my friend Marsha for FL. to arrive. She made it here at about 9 pm this evening.  In between the cleaning and moving things around I finally decided to get my oil paints out and start painting a picture. I have not painted any thing since I moved back to Saginaw, so I really enjoyed it today. Painting is so relaxing to me and the hours just pass by so fast.  It was a good day.  I will write something tomorrow.  Good night.


Thursday, December 17, 2009


I believe with all my heart that if one door is closed in your life, God will open another one for you.  Just think of all the things that have happened in your life and I am sure at the time you could not understand why  something in your life was ending, but down the road when God opened another door, it all made since.

For me I had to walk through the doors of the Church before I was able to close the door behind me. God just did it another way for me.  He knew I would not close the door unless he could show me where I needed to be of service. I give him all the Praise and Glory for knowing what I needed and the patience to wait.  He always kept me safe from the devil, I give him Praise for that also.  I don't know where he will lead me now, but I am ready to find out.

One thing I know for sure in this life is, if you want to know where a persons heart is and where there love and devotion is....  look at what they spend there money on...  look at your life and ask your self where do you spend your money, because that is what your true love is....  for some it is, drugs, alcohol, gambling and others it is expensive cars, homes, jewerly, clothes, ect...  if you just think about what people have in life and value you will see what that persons love truly is. No matter what they say it is.... the money trail is the proof.  And if God is truly your love and devotion, is that your money trail.........  No matter what we want to think in this life, money makes the world go round, not the love of money, that is for the devil.....  but money it's self makes the world go round.  So in your Church, where ever that may be...  show where your money trail leads.  I know this may make some of you uncomfortable to hear and think about, but if you are a member of anything, you should be doing whatever it takes to make it work.  No one should ever have to ask you or tell you what it takes....  just pray about it and God will show you what to do.  If we truly believe that we are here to do God's work, then that means helping other people and being disciples for the Lord.  Another thing I know for sure is that God does not let you take a u-haul to heaven, so all the things you are trying to aquire and accumulate here will stay here when you go home with the Lord.  We put so much meaning on material items that it insane when you think about it.  We hold on to things because they belonged to so and so, we hold on to them because we might need them some day....  for what ever reason we get weighted down with things...  why in the world do we do this???????  Let's for get about things... and just try and help one another.  I know when I am taking my last breaths, I am not going to be thinking about my things, I am just going to be thinking about the people I love and praying that God be with them and keep them safe until we meet in heaven. 

Wednesday, December 16, 2009


I seen this card and it made me think of all the people that will be listening to christmas music and feeling blue this year.  Perhaps they have loved one that has went to be with the Lord this year,  or perhaps they just have someone far away.  I know from personal experience that when you are not with your loved ones at this time of year the emptiness inside is so deep that you wonder if it will ever get better. It is sad to be surrounded by tons of people and still feel so lonely that you don't even know how to share the sadness. The only one you have to turn to is God, maybe that is why we have the loneliness, so we will turn to God. I feel it is so true that everything happens in our life for a reason, even when we can not understand it at the time. I also believe we meet the people we do for a reason and that we all have something to learn from one another, it is never a one way street. God always gives us what we need if we ask, the only thing is that it may not come in the form we ask for. 

I was told that we always have angels around us to help us, but unless we ask for help there is nothing they can do but stand by and watch.  Even if we are about to do ourselfs great harm.  They can do nothing unless we call out and ask God for help to save us. I know there are so many people in this world that does not even begin to have that concept and even in their darkest moment does not call out for Gods help. 

 I remember when my 76 year old aunt was on her death bed, she looked at me with tears in her eyes and ask me..... Betty, do you think I have been good enough to be with God?  My heart and eyes filled with tears as I looked into her soul through her eyes and said...  aunt Hazel, no one in this world deserves to be with God more than you, you have suffered so much hurt in this life that I know God is waiting to hold you in his arms and wipe away your tears and give you the love you never recieved in this life.  She just nodded her head, drifted off and rested for awhile.  Then later she said to me...  Betty, it's 144 miles there and 144 miles back. I said, aunt Hazel, do you keep going to the light and coming back, she shook her head yes.  I told her to just go to the light and stay, that God was waiting for her in the light.  She smiled and shook her head yes.  She called all her children around and said goodbye to each one and then and then she went home with the Lord.  All of this took place one cold December day with christmas music playing in the back groud. That was a very blue christmas.

So... let's pray for all the people in the world that are going to be without a loved one this year and ask God to help heal their heart and surround them with his love.

Let us also pray for all the people that will be having a wonderful christmas with family and friends and that he keeps them all safe.

God Bless each and everyone of you reading this.
Love and Light

Tuesday, December 15, 2009


I hope this candle is of some comfort at this busy time of year.  The time for peace on earth and good will toward man.
In years past, when things were simpler and slower it was much easier to have good will toward man, now days it is all so hard with everything that is going on in the world.  This christmas I am going to ask God to step up to the plate and take some of satan's power from him, just for a little while so we can catch up and take a breath.  Thanks to Eve we are having to work double time in this life and I think everyone is getting tired out.  Nothing is ever enough, you can not earn enough, help enough, do enough, please enough, say your sorry enough, tithe enough..... enough is never enough.  To many of us are wrapped up in the me and trying to figure out how to survive that enough is never enough.  Noel feels like, Not Offering Enough Love and it should feel like Now Offering Enough Love. 

 SO..... next year I am going to work on making things more positive and I hope I can help others around me do the same thing.  I am the type of person that really does love life and being here everyday, but if it is true and we really are headed into the end times like Revelations talks about then 2010 should be spent in getting prepared.  Getting right with the God. I don't know about you but I want to go in the Rapture, no way do I want to stay around for the bad stuff, I am too old and tired to deal with all that struggle. 

SO...  this is going to be a busy year for me, I have a lot of major work to do on myself and those around me.  I plan to be in service to God and my church as much as possible this year and pray that I can make a difference for someone and can help lead more than one to the Lord.  Our Church has a lot of pews that need people in them, so that is my goal, to see how many I can fill up by the end of 2010.  Wish me luck and pray for me, it's a big undertaking but someone has to do it and I am willing.  I mean how hard can it really be (think positive)  if you think of all the people in the area.  They just don't know yet that they need God in their life and that he is waiting to accept them and become the savior they need in their heart.

Okay now don't take this the wrong way but....  I am always kidding my friend Sue that she needs to get her a stripper pole and stand on the corner so she can get a man, so now I have a new idea, as long as she is going to be on the corner anyway... she might as well hand out tracks, hey you never know, that may be the way she gets the right man...  LOL....  God moves in mysterious ways. Let's all pray for her, all kidding aside, she is a wonderful lady and so deserves to have a God loving man to share her life with.

Next year I am going to be asking all of you to share your story with me as to what has lead you to the place you are at in your life right now and how you came to read my blogg.  Also, what things you would like to me to share on here.

Monday, December 14, 2009


This sure enough made me smile and smiling is good for the soul.  So nice to see something cute and that I can share.

Check it out....

I hope you enjoy it.........

Sunday, December 13, 2009


Today at Church was very moving, do to the fact that so many of the members have passed over to be with the Lord this year.  I am sure it must be a whole in everyones heart at this time of year that was close to them. I did not know any of them because I have only been at the Church for a short time. 

 In my mind I like to think this is the way the Lord is in heaven, looking down on us, just waiting to take us home. We are here for such a short time and each of us have a day that we to will pass to the other side,are we ready? Some of us will have long lives here in this world and some of may go home tomorrow, are we ready? Some of us have loved one that will pass in minute, are they ready? Do we have Jesus Christ in our lives and heart? have we asked for forgivness for our sins? This is the way I think it will be when I stand in front of the Lord on Judgement Day....  I imagine having two duffle bags on my back, one carries the good things I have done in my life and the other carries all the sins I have done in my life, so when the Lord asks me to unload my bags so he can see them...  I am figuring it will take me a lot longer to unload the sin bag.  So everyday I am trying to let Jesus lead me into his service so I can will be able to walk the walk and talk the talk of Jesus Christ my Lord and savior.
God knows I have already been walking the other path in life and that has not served me well so far, so I am going to try the other path and see where he leads me.  Those of you that know me, know I am going to need a lot of prayers.

Today is my baby brothers birthday, we are 13 years apart and are complete strangers. He was only about 2 years old when I got married at the age of 16, so due to the kind of family I had we never spent time together, which is very sad to me because we never got to know one another and since we have a crazy mother she has made it impossible to be sister and brother. I pray that once we both make it to heaven we will be able to know one another then. I truley believe everything happens for a purpose in this life, so I have to trust it is all just part of God's plan because I have never believed that Satan has had any power in my life and he never will.    Happy bithday Roy, you are in my prayers tonight.

On to a happier note. The Pastor keeps talking about all the changes the Church will be making starting the first of the year and I am looking forward to seeing what will be new.  I believe God has lead me to be at service in this Church while I am still living in Saginaw.  What I don't understand is why he wants me in this Church and did not wait until I move to Harrison where I will attend the Long Lake Chapel.  He must have something at this Church he wants me to do or wants me to learn.  At any rate, I am so looking forward to being in service in any way he needs me.

Saturday, December 12, 2009


This looks like a place that God would be waiting to talk with People in this day and time.  I wonder who would come and sit beside him on the bench.  Maybe a homeless person just needing a kind word from a stranger or perhaps a couple that was out for night enjoying the lights and the feeling of the christmas season.  What would they talk to him about....  the needs of others or what they need for themself.  What would god have to say to them...  would he talk to them about the beauty of the lights or the reason for the season...  or would he ask them where their heart was with God.  You see it don't matter if you are homeless with not a penny to your name or rich and famous with all the money you could ever spend....  it only matters if your heart is right with God.

Friday, December 11, 2009


I was thinking yesterday about the gentleness of Jesus and this picture shows it.  I am sure he had such a gentle spirit that even that lamb could feel it.  I sit in silence and prayer sometimes and wonder if anyone is this gentle.  Our world is so full of loud everything. Our music is loud, our songs our loud, our colors are loud, our speach is loud, the world is loud.....  how can we even hear or feel what God has to say to us with all this going on around us?  do any of us really take time EVERY day to just sit and listen?  I know we try, but do we really do it?  I know for most of us the minute our eyes open in the morning our mind is off and running mentely and when our feet touch the floor we are off and running physically. Even during this time of year when we claim to be thinking and doing for the birth of Christ......  our focus is more on EVERYTHING other than him.  I wonder what it would feel like to sit in Church all day with other believers to pray, share, and give God just one full day of our time.  If I was ever to have a church it would be open 24/7 so that people knew they could come anytime day or night to pray and share what was in their hearts.  I know you can be with God anywhere, but sometimes you just need to get out of your surroundings for awhile and pray.  I guess it would be like going to visit a friend, have a cup of coffee and just unload your heart.  The coffee and cookies would always be ready along with an open heart and mind for listening and praying with whomever God brought through the door.

This is just me thinking about what I could have used through the years to help me.

Love and Light

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


I seen this on the net and it touched my heart as I hope it touches yours also.  They are such simple powerful words.  I am going to copy this and put in in my bible, on my bathroom mirror, frig., in my van and where ever I can see it everyday.  I know the Lord is talking to my heart and I am trying to let him in and I know he is the allmighty God and will not give up on me..... but he sure has his work cut out for him.  I will keep my heart open and let him do his thing. Please pray for me.


This morning really makes me think of Christmas, all the colors, smells, food, presents, family, laughter, hugs and most of all LOVE.
God be with each of you during this season as you prepare for your holliday.

Tuesday, December 8, 2009


Winter of 08 in my house in Harrison

I was looking at this picture this morning and asking myself if I really want to move back to Harrison because winter in that area is not like it is in Saginaw.  Winter from Clare up is a whole nother culture and it is survival of the fittest, you need to count on your neighbors.  I remember the first winter in that house, we almost froze to death because we moved in at the end of October 04 and did not have time to prepare for it. That winter brought a lot of snow, thank God I had a walk behind snow blower.  The next year our neighbor up the road who had a back hoe kept the driveway plowed and a lot of times he had to plow the road out front or no one would have got out.  Living 5 miles out of town means you are going to wait for a few days for the snow plow to come by. Even with that...  the winters were so beauitful.  The deer are so plentaful in the Harrison area.  We had apple trees in the back yard and side yard that the deer would come to eat, I loved watching them.  One night I looked out the back window and a deer was sleeping curled up on top of the septic tank cover, must of been warm, he looked up at me but never run away.

That following summer Alvin had a Pheasant that follwed him around the yard when he would be outside.  It was so funny to watch because he would be right behind Alvin and when Alvin would stop he would stop and if Alvin looked back at him he would just look the other way and wait for Alvin to start moving again.  Alvin decided to see if he could get him to follow him up to the house, and he did.  He made it to the patio and Alvin said.... he don't know he is going to end up in a cooking pot....  I looked at the little guy and said.... Run buddy... save yourself... he is going to eat you...  and he just kind of walked off.  The next day he was back again following Alvin around.  I wish I would have taken a picture. No, Alvin never did eat him.

I have made the decision to stay in Saginaw for the winter and put my house here up for sale in the Spring.  I just can not stand the thought of moving in the cold. So, since I will be here I am going to ask the Pastor how I can help be of service to the Lord through the Church. I feel that is a calling I have at this time.  Pastor Van says every week that big changes are coming in the Church this next year, so I hope to be a part of them if needed.

Give Praise to the Lord

Sunday, December 6, 2009


Blue is the color of the throat

I seen this picture on the internet and it made me think of all the colors that are around our body and the part colors play in the world.  Advertisers are well aware of the way colors affect us and use then every day to intice us to buy their products.  I have studied colors and the affects they have on us... so if anyone wants to tell me what color they like I will tell you what it says about you and it will help you become more aware of how we are attracted to products we buy.  Also look in your closet and see what color most of your clothes are....  that says something about you also.  If you want to share it with me I will tell you what they mean.

Today was a uplifting day at Church.  The spirit of the Lord was present and people's hearts were open and faces were bright with smiles.  Love is in the air. 

I guess the reason that colors are on my mind today is because as I sat in Church I was looking around at the walls to see what the colors in the church are saying.....  they do need some changing.  The Pastor says that this next year is going to bring a lot of changes to this little Church and I do hope I am still here and can help as much as the Church needs me.  It is all in God's hands.

May God use you today to do his work and help someone.

Love and Light

Saturday, December 5, 2009


Give Praise To The Lord

Everything went great at Alvin's doctors app.  the cancer is not anywhere in his body but the bladder.  They are setting up the surgery date and will let us know.  They want to do it by robotics.  He is a very happy man now.

Also, some good news on Charlie, the one on life support.  The lung doctor said he is starting to respond to the what they are doing for him and as long as things keep going in a healing direction he will be in the hosp. for about 2 or 3 months before they think about giving up on him....  so thank you for the prayers and keep them coming.

Every day I look around me and see all the miracles that God does in some many different ways.  I think people have little miracles happen every day in their lives but they miss them because they are so busy looking for the....  walk on water type thing to happen.  Even in the things that happen to us that are bad something goods seems to come even through those.  Just listening to everyone share stories in PEP groug you can see how God has worked in so many different ways just to get all of us together in that Church, in that basement, in that PEP group, on that Wen. night..... every thing happens for a reason because God does not make a mistake....  I am looking forward to seeing what our lives crossing with each other will bring for each one of us.  Thank God for Pastor Van and God moving in ways that put him in Saginaw...  because even though we both lived in St. Louis at the same time and he was the Pastor of the Church of God....  I never meet him then, but here we are both in the Saginaw area and we are brought together... for a reason I am sure.  God moves in mysterious ways sometimes to get us to serve him in ways that he needs and he is always right on time.

God Bless Each Of You

Wednesday, December 2, 2009


promise days
nor sun
But he
did promise
for the day.
for the tears
for the way.


Good Morning,

I have spent this morning on the phone trying to deal with some problems I need to take care of and listening to people that have problems they are trying to deal with.

I think everyone in the world is going crazy.  The Devil must be working over time during these end times.  When the state can take away all your rights in correcting a child and then they do not follow through to make sure the child is protected.... what is that about.

I know when I was a kid and all my family lived on the same road, we could never get away with a thing because we had to answer to all the adults that seen us doing somehting wrong.  Now when you grow up you move away from your family and stangers then become your family and you never even get to know your own family so you have no connection to them....  I know that was not part of God's plan.  Parents have no rights, grandparents have no rights, aunts and uncles have no say so.....   and the state who wants to be in control, really don't care at all... it's just a job.  And we wonder why we have so much teenage pregnacy, abortion, drugs, murders, porn, no rules...  then when our children end up in prison we are judged as bad parents... it's a no win situation..  everyone has lost their minds...  and now they want to control the Churches...  whats next.....  the anti-christ??????? 

I will be praying for the whole world today and all of God's children.  WE NEED HELP DOWN HERE LORD.  We are sinners in the respect that we have become a ME society.  And our EGOS are so huge that we almost don't fit on this planet.  SHAME ON US AS GOD'S PEOPLE.

Let's give praise and glory to the Lord today and ask for PEACE.

I keep forgetting to put my acts of kindness on here each day, but every day God permits me to do or say something kind for someone...  yesterday it was visiting my cousin in the hospital.... today it is lending a ear to a cousin that is trying to help her grandchildren... 

Tuesday, December 1, 2009


I just got back from visiting my cousin Phyllis Roldand in the hospital and she is doing so much better that they will be sending her home tomorrow. They were able to take care of her problem with thyroid meds and she will not need a pacemaker put in.  Thank all of you so much for the prayers for her.  Praise the Lord for anwsering our prayers.



I sometimes wonder what Jesus must be thinking of us as he watches us through our lifes.  Knowing that he gave his life for our sins so that we did not have to endure the pain he went through.

How does he feel about the unborn babies we are killing....
How does he feel about us killing each other..
How does he feel about us not giving frogiveness to someone we feel has done us wrong....
How does he feel about us not following his word....
How does he feel about us breaking the commandment of resting on the Sabbath as we set in Church....
How does he feel about us coming up with all our own Churches, religions, rules and laws......
How does he feel about the people in the Churches that think they are the chosen ones and still treating other people poorly...
How does he feel about us decorating our Churhes instead of taking that money and helping the poor, the sick, the needy... all his children..

This has all been on my mind since I heard someone speak on the subject of the facts that are in the bible... On the Sabbath we are to do NOTHING but rest and pray....
That relegon is man made...  he never made denomination of any kind..  and to belong to a Church you have to follow the rules of that Church or they don't want you in their Church or Their religion....  

Now don't get me wrong I very much enjoy the little Church I am attending and the people that fill some of the pews....  but I guess I will have to discuse this with the Pastor because it is on my heart. I know we are all sinners in one way or another but where is the line drawn....  maybe all of this comes into the free will that God gave us... and we just keep right on following Eve with what WE think is right or sinfull....  just searching I guess.

Please feel free to like me know how you think and feel about this.

Love and Light

Sunday, November 29, 2009



I was talking with a friend today and I started thinking about when I was a young girl around the age of 8.  I used to love going to visit my aunt and uncle that lived in Litchfield, MI during December. My aunt alwasy had campbells's chicken noodle soup to eat and that was my favorite way back then.  They lived in a second floor apartment across the street from the park, that was in the center of town. I was visiting on a cloudy, cold december day. The snow was was falling softley to the ground all day. I looked out the living room window to watch the snow as it gentley fell from the dark night sky. The park across the street was all lit up from the street lights and all the christmas decorations. Right directley across from the apartment window was the display of the baby Jesus and the manger. Throuhg the snow and lights it looked so real that I kept looking to see if any of he figures were going to move. I just knew that baby Jesus must be cold. My aunt noticed me looking at the scene in the park and turned off all the lights and tv in the apartment so I could hear the christmas music that they played non stop in the park. My heart was filled with love and anticipation of christmas. To a young girl of eight it was such a magical night and sight to behold. One that will forever be etched in my mind.

Saturday, November 28, 2009


Thank you Jesus I made it through another Thanksgiving.... Hope everyone had a great time and ate lots and lots..... Now we just have to wait for Christmas so we can eat more and more... it's just a visous cycle we live in... but.... it sure tastes good.

What a beautiful day this is, the sun is shining and we are going to the movies in a few min. to see The Blind Side and then maybe stop for a bite to eat and then on to the hospital to visit my cousin that is still waiting for the doc to decide if he is putting a pacemaker in or not.  I just pray they can fix it with thyroid meds.

God gave me a wonderful gift last night.  I was on facebook trying to figure it all out when a dear friend of mine that lives here in Saginaw got on and started talking to me. Have not seen or talked to her in a couple of years.  She came right over and we talked for hours just catching up on life. I thank God for that. Praise the Lord for his loving kindness and knowing what we need and when we need it.

Have a godly day

Wednesday, November 25, 2009


I was thinking tonight of all the past Thanksgivings in my life...  so many people have come and gone in my life, some just moving on and others going to be with God.  I wonder when we get to Heaven if we will still have Thanksgiving dinner... sure hope so.

I am thinking of my friend Jodie that lost her husband this year to cancer.  He was only 42. She is spending her first Thanksgiving without her husband this year and is having a hard time with all the emotions. God keep her in your arms....

My friend Marsha lost her husband of 40 some years last year and is in Flordia by herself this Thanksgiving.  God keep her in your arms.

My heart goes out to Charlie that is on life support in Bay Medical this Thanksgiving and his family is going to have to make the decision to take him off the life support and let him go with God....  God keep him in your arms.....

All of us have people in our lives that are in the same positions at this time of year so I ask that God keep all of your friends and family in his arms also.

Thank God for all the Thanksgivings that we do have with our loved ones, what a blessing.

Love and Light


My act of kindness yesterday was buying my sister a fake christmas tree and taking it to her.  She forgot and left her tree in the pole barn when she moved from the other house.

We went to see my cousin Phyllis yesterday because she is over here in the Midland Hospital.  They are still trying to make the decision to put a pacemaker in her, she is only 51 but has a lot of medical conditions. 

From there we went to Harrison to take Rita her tree and from there we took her husband Barry to Bay City so he could be with his sister and her family.  His brother in law Charlie, who is only 50 years old,  went in the hospital last week with the H1N1 virus and they had to put him on life support. The problem with Charlie is that he weighs over 500 pounds and never took care of himself at all.  The doctor has told them they are giving him 48 to 72 hours to show some improvement and then they will have to make the decision to take him off life support.

I am praying for all of them and thanking God for all that is well in my life this year......

I will be gone to Lansing until Sat. so you won't hear from me until then so I wishing all of you a Blessed holiday with your families....  Praise to the Lord .....

Monday, November 23, 2009


Yesterday before we went up to Harrison I was watching the tv show Amazing Facts.  Doug was speaking about God telling his people they were to work six days and rest on the seventh day, the Sabbath....  I like the facts he points out in the bible, they really make you think.  You can check him out at  he even has a online bible study for free.  It does amaze me that the churches don't follow the commandment of resting on the seventh day.

This is the front of the house.

This is the north side of the house.

It is in good condition on the inside but still needs some things done to it.  If it is meant to be then God  will make it happen and give me what and who I need to do his work.

My act of Kindness yesterday was sharing the trip to see the house with my family and friends.

My cousin Phyllis is in the hospital, they are not sure if she needs a pacemaker or not, please put her on your prayer list.

Love and Light

Sunday, November 22, 2009


God Bless everyone today....

My act of kindness yesterday was lending a ear to my cousin who's husband is passing over to be with the Lord from ALS.....  she is dealing with all kinds of Insurance problems. She just retired fromt he State to be able to care for her husband so she has good Insurance and it is still a night mare for her. Please say a prayer for both of them....  Cindy and Barry.... 

This is such a calming fall picture that I wanted to share with everyone....  I wonder what she is thinking...  I think she is thanking God for such the  beauitful fall with all the warm weather we had this year. 

I have been up since 4:30 this morning because I am excited about going to Harrison today to look at the house again.  The Lord is leading me in that direction and I know he will provide what ever is needed to serve him and help his people.  I know he has a higher calling for me in the second half of my life.  Most of you know me and know that has not been the way my life has been.  Once God started calling me to be in service, so many things are changing and it is all through the seeds he is planting.......  what a wonderful feeling.  I pray that all of you are a part of this mission for the Lord.  Aleta, I know you are reading this, God just put this in my heart to ask you....  when the chapal opens he wants you to sing the blessing song for his people.....  will you do it?

Love and Light

Friday, November 20, 2009

The House of Hope

Ok, so I never made it out of the house yesterday to get my cards, however I will do it today.  Even thou I did'nt make it out of the house yesterday I was able to do my act of kindness and share God.

A friend of mine was having problems with one of the many gov. agency so we spent time on the phone getting things taken care of.  Thank God I have a cousin that could tell us what we needed to do....  and it was all taken care of and she felt much better...  Thank God.

While she was here we were able to talk about the Church and God.  It started out by me asking her if she thought her teenage daughter would like to go to the pep group at Chuch with me on wen. nights....  she would be a great asset to the group.... but..  she has a class she has to take on wen. nights so she can graduate in the spring...  so...  i will she if she wants to go to Church with me one Sunday. 

I found out that my son Scott and his fiance talk about the bible a lot. My children were not raised in the Church but we always talked about God and his best friend was in a Church family so Scott did attend with his friend and went to bible camp in the summer.  I am going to ask him and his family to go to Church with me on Christmas, have to start somewhere.

Alvin and I will not be in Church on Sunday because we are going to Harrison to meet with the realtor to look at the house again and Scott and Tracy are going with us to see it.  They know I am buying it to turn it into The House Of Hope and The Chapel Of Hope.  I want them to be a part of it because once I am gone I would like them to carry it on, they are very interested. I sure will be able to use my sons help getting things put together. It's all part of God's plan and everything is falling into place.  The House Of Hope will be just that, a place that people can come any time, 24/7, when they feel they have no hope and need help getting back on track. Life does not run just 9 to 5 or Sunday mornings so God has put it in my heart to have a place that is always open for people to come to and feel safe.  I know there has been times in my life that I needed such a place and had no where to turn, so I know others need the same thing.  The door at The House of Hope will always be open.

I have a lot of family in Harrison that I know for sure will be there to help me with what ever I need which is such a great blessing.  It is the town I came from and the town I want to give back to. 

Love and Light

Thursday, November 19, 2009


As Thanksgiving is fast approaching it is time to start thinking about the people and things we are thankful for and start counting our blessing.

I have made the decision today that the way I am going to share the holiday with my friends and family is that I am going to the store today and buy Thinking Of You cards.  I am going to write notes in each one telling them why I am thankful for them......  I guess that must be a act of kindness for today.  So many times we are thankful for things that people do for us and we tell everyone else about it, but we never take the time to tell the person that we are thankful for.

I remember one time my step mother telling me how proud my dad was of me and the way I had turned out and that he told everyone how proud he was.....  I looked at her and said, thats nice, but it would mean more if he told me.....  she went home and told him what I said and he made a special trip from Traverse City just to tell me he was proud of me.  He told me that him nor my mother could take the credit for the way I turned out because they had nothing to do with it..... it had to be something in me that wanted to be better.  That really was not totaly ture because they both taught me all the ways I never wanted to be. I my heart I know they both did the best they knew how to do coming from what and where they came from and I am greateful for both of them.....

My act of kindness yesterday was helping my sons girlfriend get information she needs to help her daughter.

Acts of kindness can be anything, but I am finding out that by doing this I am thinking about them all the time,which I think will make me a better person.

I love all of you and bless each and everyone of you.
Love and Light

Wednesday, November 18, 2009


Good Morning,

I got the challange idea from Lysa....

I am going plant a seed of kindness every day for the next 365 days and put what I do on here everyday.  An act of kindness can be any thing from saying hi to someone in the store to giving to your family.  My challenge to you is to do the same thing and share with us in the commet box what you have done..... 

God works in mysterious ways and I think through us becoming conscious of the things we do he can change us and heal us. 

Remember to say a prayer for Linda Peake....

God bless each of you

Love and Light

Tuesday, November 17, 2009


Today is a day of praise and thanks giving..

Alvin and I talked with the doctor yesterday and he said Alvin's cancer is only in the bladder, it has not travled anywhere else.  By taking the bladder out and giving him a drain tube and bag he should live a long life.  The doctor is still going to have a ct scan done on Alvin, where they put dye in him and then check to see how it goes back to the bladder, just to make sure the cancer is no where else. He will not even have to have chemo or radiation. What a blessing. Praise the Lord.  He should be going in Sparrow Hospital in Lansing this next week to have the surgery and will have a 7 to 10 day stay and then a 4 to 6 recovery time.  He just feels so blessed.

Alvin and I both want to thank each and everyone of you for your prayers and best wishes.

Also, I received  a request for prayers for Linda Peake who is losing her fight with cancer, she only has 3 to 6 weeks to live..... she is a lady from our church.  

Dear God, I don't know Linda personally but she is your child and you do, that's all that matters. Lord you are the great healer and creator of all miracles in this world and only you can fix Linda's cancer. Hear our prayers, feel our love, and give her grace and healing. You only have 3 weeks Lord, but I know you only need 3 seconds.....  Work your miracle and keep her here for a little longer.  Thank you for listening...  your loving servant, Betty.  AMEN

Sunday, November 15, 2009


I have thought long and hard in the past few days about cancer since Alvin is now on that journey in life.  I truly believe that it is just another word for the devil.  I guess if he can not get your soul and spirit he will go after your body. Instead of blaming the devil we some how twist it around and blame God....  It's not God's fault, he does not give it to us, I know this for sure because he is a loving God...  I do believe that even though it is the work of he devil if our faith in God is strong enough and we believe without a doubt that God can heal us...... then he can....  I can pray all I want for Alvin, but Alvin is the one that has to talk with God about it.  I do know that Alvin is a man that accepts things a day at a time and believes that people do the things they do because they are human.  He is a man that has faced many things in life that none of us could even imagine, and is still so postive about life and people and is greateful just for waking up in the morning....  and I believe he will beat the cancer once he knows that he is fighting the devil.  I will always pray for him every day on this journey he is on and be by his side.

Love and Light


Friday, November 13, 2009


Good Morning,

Sorry I have not written.  I have been out of town and forgot to post that info before I left.  I was in Lansing because Alvin had to go into the hospital and have a tumor removed from his bladder.  After the surgery the doctor came and talked to me and let me know that it is cancer, he removed it, put in a cath. until Alivn sees him on monday.  At that time he will talked with Alvin about removing his bladder or other options....  Alvin is doing real good with all of it, I think because he has not spoke with the doc. himself yet.  Monday will change the course of his life...  I just ask that all of you pray for him.... God is the only one that can create a miracle.

Now, on a lighter note....  As I was setting here praying this morning God fianlly told me what my mission is and now I am just waiting to hear where it is supposed to be.  I think it will change the way all Churches handles their ministries.  I can not reveal what it is yet, but it will be a huge undertaking and I will need a lot of help.... it will take all of us..... and  I think it will be something that you as women will want to be a part of from the ground floor...  If God puts it in your heart I know you will be a part of it. This will fill such a huge need in every community...  I will let you know what it is when God puts it in my heart to share it... it is just the beginning for all of us.

Monday, November 9, 2009


Good Morning,

I have been watching the Joyce Meyer show on tv this morning and put her link on below my message for you to check out.  She has bought a huge old hospital and is gutting it and turning into a place for women to go to that has been part of the sex trafficing in the united states.  This is something as a women I could not even imagine happening to me as a child.....

I sometimes sit and ask God....  how could you allow a small child that can not protect themself against the devil be hurt in this way or any other way....  where are you, where are your angel's... 

I will be praying on this today.

Love and Light

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Sunday, November 8, 2009


As I sat in Church this morning listening to the Pastor talking about the changes that were coming to the little Church of God here in Sagianw,  it was as if the entire Church filled with God's Angel's...  I could feel the presents of the heavenly father and his light of love.  We here in the human flesh are usually not accepting of changes because we fear the unknown.  The spiritual movement that is present in the world today with all the Mega Churches that are coming out of the ashes are ushering in a change like we have never known before.  Those Mega Churches are filled with young and old, lot's of singing and dancing and most of all.....  Praise for the Lord! Our young today want to jump and shout.....  and we need to let them.  Our young is what keeps us going in every area of this human life.  I just pray that they have learned to let the past go and not hold them back because we need them to move us forward.  Just because they do not look the way we think they should or act the way we think they should does not mean they are not going to lead us into the future....  believe it or not they are very spirtual beings and just as full of God's DNA as we older ones are.... everything is God's plan no matter what we want to think and the youth are doing just fine.  The Bible tells us that they we will go against us, and they are.... that is all part of God's plan also. At this point I guess it is just important that each one of us makes sure we have our hearts straight with God.  I know I want to go in the Rapture....  I don't want to stick around for the rest.

This is just my way of thinking and how I feel about things......  none of us are perfect and we are all doing the best we know how to do...... one minute at a time, one day at a time, one life at a time.  God has give each and eveyone of us a live time to accept him as our Lord and Savior, either we are with him, or we're not, but no one makes that decision for us but US. God knows no matter what we aquire here on earth, we don't get to take a U-Haul to heaven with us.  In our dieing moments (if we are lucky to have those moments) we are not thinking about the material things we are leaving..... we are things about the ones we love and will miss.....  so why not think that way every day?

Love and Light

Saturday, November 7, 2009


Hi Everyone,

I have to share this with you tonight.

I got a phone call from my cousin Rose in Texas telling me that her daughter in laws mom had called them to tell them about a little 5 year old boy that is dieing of cancer.  His wish is to recieve as many chritmas cards as he can before he dies.  They say he may have until Christmas, but it could be any day.  Here is his address and a chance for you to fill a childs simple wish.  Remember, my cousin Rose is the one that lost her grandson to cancer so it is all close to her heart.

Noah Biorkman
1141 Fountain View Cr.
South Lyon, MI 48178

I am sending mine out in the morning....

I am grateful that God is asking us to be a part of his wish and giving us a chance to pray for him and his family at such a painful time.

Thanks to all of you,
Love and Light


This was my yesterday.....

After I wrote on here yesterday I got around and headed up to Harrison to have lunch with Faith.  Faith started out being the realtor that listed my house for sale in Harrison.  From the first day that I spoke with her there was a connection, like we had known each other forever.  She sold my house and I moved back to Sagainaw but we never lost touch.  While in Harrison we never talked about the closeness we felt, but through emails we started talking and became friends. 

All the way to Harrison yesterday I was praying that God would let me create a Miracle for someone...  Faith and I had a nice lunch and wonderful conversation. There is so much about us that is alike.  I always look forward to spending time with her. 

To me, nothing really earth shaking happed while we were having lunch. By that I mean I did'nt feel any miracles were taking place.  We talked a lot about God, the church in Saginaw, her faith and believes and that she would like to find a church that she felt comfortable going to.  She wants to belong to one that accepts everyone no matter who or what they are in this life.

I stopped and seen my sister while I was in Harrison and dropped off a care package, not much new going on there......   Got to see Jodie and Danny while visiting Rita and Barry.

I drove out on Polk Ave. where I grew up north of town just to check and see if anything is new.... they are re-doing a old trail out in that area and making it a road now.  I have no idea why.  Went by the old school house.  I love that school house.  When I was a kid the family that owned it was from Detroit and had about 8 kids, I think. Most of my family lived on Polk Ave. at the time, we were like a pack of wild Indians and there was a lot of us kids.  Every time Henery and Beterice came up they would ring the school bell to let us know they were up,  us kids went running from where ever we were because they always brought us candy.  I loved that school house so much I always said when I was little that when I grew up I was going to buy it and make it my Church. ..... 

Anything is Possible

This is my Church some day when God is ready for me to have it.

I used to spend many days as a little girl on that pourch, praying and singing (thank God it is way out in the country and no one couldl hear me singing)  and pretending everyone was going to show up for church and we would go inside.  Strange thing though, I have never been inside of it.

Getting back to yesterday....  I headed back to Saginaw and all the way I was asking God what happened to the the Miracle thing he was suppost to help me do....  no answer..... I said, well the day is not done yet... so we still got a chance....  no answer...

Once I got home and got the laundry done, bed made, and something to eat, I sat down to pray.  Once again I asked God where was the Miracle for the day????  no answer.

I then decided to accept that it was not meant to be that day.....  I got on the computer to check my messages and I had one from Faith....  she had been reading my blogg from the morning.... this is what she wrote....

  Thank You Betty,  You fed my spirit, my mind and my body. I would say your mission was accomplished.....  so I guess sometimes we don't even realize when we create a Miracle for someone. That made my heart and spirit so happy....  Thank you Faith for being YOU.

While on the computer my friend Aleta came on to talk with me.  I was telling her about going to Church in Saginaw and that the Pastor used to be out in St. Louis.  She asked his name and I told her Pastor Van.  She asked a few more questions and then told me her oldest Son,  Tim Erskin used to go to his church in St. Louis and thought the world of Pastor Van and the the Pastor was the reason that Tim went to bible college in Tulsa, OK....  and he still lives in Tulsa and goes to Church at the college....  Tim can now become a Minister himself but don't feel he is ready yet......  wonder what is holding him back.  It is such a small world when you find out you have connections with people through other people...  makes me wonder why God has me in this Church in Sagainaw at this time.....  time will tell.

Love and Light

Friday, November 6, 2009

Reflecting on Life

Reflecting on Life


Good Morning,

Ok, so, I decided today is the day that I am going to try the big things for God.....

I am asking God to let me create a Miracle for someone today.....

All day I am going to be asking for this....  I figure...  what the heck... if I am going to be a servant for God I might as well go big time...  I truly believe we can do anything we ask to do with the help of the Lord.....

Soooooooo......  I will be back on here in the moring to let you know what happened....

I'm sooooo excited...... I just can't hide it.....  :-))))

Love and Light

Thursday, November 5, 2009

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Ten Things

Ten Things


Good Morning,

Last night at the Church PEP meeting the decision was made to help a family in need for Thanksgiving and for the Christmas Holidays.....  This is what Church and Gods people are all about.  Through this act of giving I feel we will all be touched by the heart of God.

When I was a kid I lived in Lansing at the time and was attending the Sout Baptist Church.  At Thanksgiving the Church people delivered us a basket of food. My step dad was so upset about it because he was a proud man and did not want help from anyone.  He made them take it back.  At the time I could not understand it all, as I got older I did understand because I got to know my step dad better....  he just felt he was the man of the house and it was his job to provide for his family and was not going to let someone else do his job.  He worked at Oldsmobile at the time and was off work with a back injury but still would not take help.  Since my parents did not attend church with us, one of us kids must have said something to someone at church that made them feel we needed help.  I have to tell you that when a person from the Church came to my house, it was not a good thing because my step dad did not believe in God or the Church and he loved to argue with them.  I am sure they went back and did a lot of praying for him, as they should have.  With all of his wierd ways of thinking... and he had many... he was still a great dad. I thank God for him every day, even now that he has passed to the other side. 

Let us pray for all the families in the world right now that are having a hard time making ends meet and are in need of so many things.....

Love and Light

Wednesday, November 4, 2009


I was cleaning out my trashy office yesterday and came across this letter I had wrote to God when I was still living on Harding, so I thought I would share it with all of you.

My Dearest God,

Thank you for loving me so much that you gave your son to save me from my sins.  Thank your son, Jesus, for loving me so much that he was willing to give his life for my sins.  For these loving acts I will forever be in your debt and service.  I will always accept you as my Lord and savior.  I ask to be of servie to you, to share your word with others, to help who I can.  Lord, I accept that as I do your work and spread your word, some of my family and friends may choose to walk away from me and I trust you to know what is best for all of us.


It has taken me three years from the time I wrote this to finally get into the Church....  guess I am a little slow.  I know I am on a path that I can never turn back on, that God has a plan and I am just following.  In this past year I have had a lot of family memebers removed from my life and I trust it is all part of God's plan for a better tomorrow.

Romas 8:28 says...
And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose.

I trust this to be so..

Love And Light

Tuesday, November 3, 2009




I talked with my friend Marsha who is in FL right now.   She was telling me that she will be heading back to MI in a couple weeks.  Marsha's husband, Denny, passed away with cancer last Nov.  She came home in Jan. and spent the summer with her family and me.  She came home then because her mother who was 79 wanted her to come back, so she did, thinking her mom needed her.  Once she was here she realized she could not live with her mom because her mom would not let her do anything to help her. 

Shortly after she was back here she got a phone call from her friend Patty in FL telling her that Patty's husband John had cancer. Now John was the man that helped Marsha with Denny, he would stop by everyday and see if Denny needed anything and would sit with Denny if Marsha needed to go anywhere. Marsha's heart was breaking at the news of John.  She then felt she needed to go back to FL and be with them and help them during Jonh's cancer treatments the way they helped her.  She struggled with it all summer.


Her one brother Richard, who was the one that flew down to FL to drive back with her so she did not have to make the drive alone, had a severe stroke.  He could no longer live by himself or drive and doing alot of what he used to and lost a lot of his memory.  Now her heart was torn between staying and going back for her friend.


Her daughter Denise, who is only 34 was told she had cancer in her kidney.....  she then wanted to stay here for her daughter and be with her during the surgery when they removed her kidney.  They made it through all of that....  

Richard is now living with his mother and Denise is doing good after the surgery....

Thank God Marsha had found a Church to go to while she was home called The New Beginning..... she loves that Church and the people. 

Once she knew everyone was going to be okay here she was ready to head back to FL.  She missed her home, her friends and Denny.  Most of all the life she had there with Denny.  She was excited about going back and being with everyone and helping John and Patty through the tough days ahead.

The first couple of weeks back was good for her, she kept her slef busy with cleaning the house, seeing and helping friends..... then her heart started to get lonely.


Denny was not there any longer and  John and Patty would not let her help them do anything.  Also, she got a phone call from her daughter Denise telling her they found more cancer.....  her heart was torn then...

She finally has made the decision that she needs to move back to MI and be with her family and friends back here... Denny is never going to be in FL again and she needs to move on and start her new path, where ever God leads her. 

Life is all about change, things come and go, people come and go, but God will always be with us....

So I ask that you all keep her in your prayers......

I know this could be anyone of us at any time, so be greateful for the people you have in this life.

Life is not easy for anyone.

Love and Light